Pages in a life

Pages in a Life charts the encounters in courtrooms, council chambers and sports fields that helped to start a young journalist’s career. His journey reflects his work in a vibrant and lively town in the Nottinghamshire coalfield and a path filled with laughs and surprises, taking in everything from the cricket star Harold Larwood to the notorious ‘Black Panther’ Donald Neilson.

Part of the Family

An inspiring story of one family’s journey through the British care system, from the point of view of a foster carer. It tells of the funny, challenging, and often harrowing times of living life in an ever-changing household of temporary children.

Steering a course through the muddy waters of the care system has provided many obstacles but has overall proved to be a rewarding and heart-warming experience for the author.

Children who find themselves removed from their birth families are thrust into a system which, although trying its best, is so often lacking in the love and good quality nurturing they deserve.

As a society, we need to look at the way we deal with vulnerable children.

Passive Conflict

Born on the serene island of Jersey, Irene Camus Smith’s life took an unexpected turn as the shadows of war descended upon her homeland. The Channel Islands, Britain’s oldest possessions, faced the threat of Hitler’s invasion during World War II. When the islands were demilitarized and left defenceless, German forces swiftly occupied them for five arduous years, marking Hitler’s triumph of setting foot on British soil after centuries.

The Channel Islanders endured unimaginable hardships under occupation, particularly during the siege that followed the Allied invasion of Normandy. Facing starvation and struggling to survive, their resilience was tested to the core. Among the countless stories of struggle, Irene’s family narrative unfolds, capturing the essence of the islanders’ collective experience.

Through their journey, we witness the strength of the human spirit amid adversity, as bonds are tested, and sacrifices made. In this poignant tale of survival and hope, Irene Camus Smith’s remarkable story stands as a testament to the unwavering resilience of the Channel Islanders during one of history’s darkest chapters.

Paul’s Story: A Son’s Struggle with Adoption, Schizophrenia and the Mental Health System

“Mental illness? Who wants to read about that?” Despite one in four people experiencing mental ill health in their lifetime, it is not a popular topic for conversation.  Perhaps this book will change that!

Combining amusing anecdotes, insights from research and heart-rending personal reflections, this book recounts the triumphs, traumas, and tragedies of the life of Paul – adopted child, loved son and brother, schizophrenia sufferer – and of his family. Excerpts from Paul’s own journals and reflections from his family, highlight the ups and downs of Paul’s life. These include his struggle with having been relinquished for adoption, his difficulty accepting the diagnosis of schizophrenia, and the inconsistent and patchwork approach to support for people with mental ill health and underline the tragic waste of human possibility resulting from inadequate mental health care.

An absorbing, poignant and powerful read, this chronicling of Paul’s life and experiences and its impact on his family is incredibly emotive, tackling some difficult subjects with honesty, compassion, and humour. The personable writing style makes this work accessible to a wide audience and the sustained analysis and discussion relating to the need for a higher standard of care and improvements in the mental health system makes the work compelling. Ultimately, it is a heartfelt piece that raises important suggestions for society today.

Perfection Is NOT the Word for It

Orchestral life in Britain is thriving and anarchic, in turns chaotic, hilarious and brutal. Perfection Is Not the Word for It is a personal, and mostly affectionate, account of life amongst the extraordinary characters who lead their over-stressed lives in this unusual world, surrounded by music but driven by everyday anxieties, and always defying the best efforts of administrators, bureaucrats and conductors to tame the unruly beast which is a professional orchestra.

Post Traumatic Stress And Disorderly

Post Traumatic Stress and Disorderly is one man’s story growing up in Liverpool UK and his fight with the mental health condition PTSD, manifested by multiple horrific ordeals.

Symptoms first surfaced as a young teenager after being targeted by the notorious Liverpool Bogeyman during the eighties, stalked and bullied until a violent confrontation was the only way out of the harrowing situation, thus becoming the catalyst for the debilitating mental state.

His ordeal included witnessing three murders (including two in a double gangland execution of friends in his family run health club in the nineties) the investigation, the suspicion of his involvement by the police, the court cases as a pivotal witness, the wearing of a bullet proof vest and self-prescribed remedies of cocaine and alcohol to escape the torturing images embedded into his now fragile mindset. These remedies were just as destructive, helping the demise to an already crumbling psyche. This book is a brutally honest account of one man’s failings to some degree successes in his elusive search for a more stable peace of mind.

But it didn’t stop there. Bolstering the attacks of PTSD, he experienced a car bomb attack to kill and destroy, a near psychotic encounter with a global superstar, incarceration to HMP Liverpool, a near fatal stabbing on a family holiday, right up to the experiences of losing both parents within fifteen months of each other, one to the pandemic in 2020, and the tragic premature loss of his oldest brother shortly after.

This is an account of creating antidotes for better mental health, finally accumulating into a formula of stability that the mental health professionals failed to provide. Like the ups and downs of a vast mountain range Post Traumatic Stress and Disorderly will take you down to the caverns of despair, soaring to the peaks of personal achievement, in a war the author has had with himself.

Raising Seven

How would you feel if a complete stranger approached you and revealed a secret only you knew? And then said, “You need to get moving on it.” After this encounter in 2009, I knew I had to start writing my memoir and Raising Seven was born.

Our five sons came first and then there were the years of longing and praying for those evasive daughters. I did hear from God during those years that He would fulfil my heart’s desire. He just did not tell me when.

My husband, Al, passed away during the writing of our story. The memoir covers our first meeting in 1966 at the beach town in Lavallette, New Jersey, to the present.

Having seven children was not popular then, or even now. For Al and I thought, this was a blessing not a curse. With the help of scripture, faith in God, the encouragement of family and friends, those years for us became years of joy. The happiness, adventures, pitfalls and struggles of our rambunctious family of seven is the heartbeat of this book.

Recollections

Recollections takes you on a roller coaster tour of emotion, from darker subjects detailing the struggles of those marred by conflict and personal battles, to a light and humorous tone arising from everyday observations of life, which will resonate with all who read them.

Some of the poems address very personal challenges and will transport the reader into the lives of those struggling to cope with the emotional issues they face.

Readers who have experienced similar emotional journeys will recognise the battles that the topics encapsulate. Others address the lighter side of topics such as ageing.

Many of the poems are based on deeply emotional experiences and demonstrate the huge diversity of human emotion. Some will bring tears to your eyes, whilst others may result in a wry smile.

Recollections

I was born a girl and to my parents, it only meant one thing; I would be a servant to my siblings, husband, dad, in-laws and any other person who crossed my path in life. The happiness of my husband, children, family and extended family was important. I would be a cook, housemaid, sexual object to my husband, a mother, a nurse and all the commitments that come from being a servant wife.

Learning respect and obeying was why I was sent to a convent for my schooling. My brothers were more important than me and when the time came I was prevented from becoming a teacher because I was a girl and that would not be my role in life. I was made to believe that my happiness was not important, only the happiness of others. My mum had been my role model and I firmly believed all that rubbish until my husband died. I was finally out of the cage and into a future of freedom and possibilities. To be able to learn who I was and what I liked. Finally, I was able to think of myself.

My life from the age of two has been a huge rollercoaster and one that I never got the chance to get off until I was 64. I have kept a lot of my experiences to myself as I believed them to be my fault. I yearned for someone to love me and not abuse me and to be my friend and my confidant. The only unconditional love I ever got was from my two boys (my dogs Max and Sam) who left me when they were 16. I cherish and feel blessed by my two wonderful children’s love but it’s not the same.

Reeling Back the Years

Bound by a shared love for the outdoors and fishing, this book is a testament to enduring friendships and the countless laughs that come with them. Dive into a world where the weight of everyday anxieties lifts and is replaced by light-hearted tales and memories.

While the backdrop might often be fishing, this narrative isn’t about the catch. It’s about how shared passions shape bonds and how humour becomes life’s most treasured anchor. It’s a reminder to find joy in the little things and never let life weigh too heavily on your shoulders.

Whether you’re tickled by quirky tales, or find mirth in the mundane, this collection of escapades – from Irish adventures to misadventures on boat trips – is bound to resonate. Settle in with a warm drink and let these stories reel you into a world of laughter and camaraderie.

Reflections of a Country Boy

A book for everyone brought up in the 1950/60s and one which every modern-day parent should read and then pass it on, or read, to their children. It is a light-hearted book, but with serious implications at times, of the upbringing of a young boy, the author, on a North Lancashire farm, and of his life experiences gained. It portrays traditional farming as a way of life of the time, in which every family member was expected to contribute in some way, shape or form, for the smooth running of operations. It also covers the author’s introduction to the many and varied country pursuits and pastimes which he enjoys to this day.

Sometimes hilarious, sometimes sombre, but never boring, the author transports us through the many and varied situations he encountered in his formative years. By today’s standards, the freedom he was given by his parents, to roam and explore the area surrounding his home, would not be countenanced. More’s the pity, for a better upbringing and stress-free way of living for a youngster would be hard to envisage.

Reflections of My Life

Living in a quiet corner of rural Northern Ireland in the 50s and 60s, children had an idyllic freedom to explore plus a healthy respect for hard work and community spirit. Moving from this, to the bustle and confusion of London, enjoying a short spell living in historic Bath to then living in the Far East, was in itself a lifetime experience.

But follow this on with a broken marriage, a protracted divorce and the harsh realities of living with the ‘troubles’ in Northern Ireland, was a route not experienced by everyone.

Starting again, in the hitherto unknown world of a ‘word smith’ in Public Relations, which included working across the UK, Europe, Bosnia (during and post-conflict) and in Kosovo (post-conflict), was a new route. This process was an accidental rather than a deliberate choice. It flowed out of necessity, drawn by instinctive reaction to circumstances rather than by design.

These experiences form the basis of this narrative.